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Apr. 30th, 2007 | 09:16 am
mood: numb numb

what do you do when you realize that after 4 years in a relationhip, you love and care for you boyfriend, but no longer are IN love with him, or feel a desire for him... he is your best friend and knows you so well, and still loves you and puts up with your annoying ways. so you try to break it to him... and he gets really upset (to be expected) and tells you that he's changed his life for you, and you are his world and everything he does is for you, and he has/is nothing without you, and he thought you were it, you were his soulmate... and how he can't believe that you dont feel the same as him.... and so you get really upset and start to question your own feelings... and take back the break up in a sense.... thinking maybe you were wrong and so focused on his bad qualities before.... but wake up the next morning knowing no... you were right, and now your stuck, really just stuck... cause otherwise you destroy someone who you care deeply about, when they're already feeling depressed about other issues in their life.....

i thought alot about how he would react... and knew it would be like this... but it was SO much worse than i imagined... i didn't realize he was depressed... he never let on or told me.. now i'm stuck.... i can not break up with him.... it would devastated him... even myself the next day felt like crap... without him.. yet i just don't think he's the one...

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From: luker_laughed
Date: Apr. 30th, 2007 04:18 pm (UTC)


you'll be okay, it is just weird for now

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From: nytesky
Date: Apr. 30th, 2007 07:09 pm (UTC)

we're still together.... i couldn't go through with it.. i've never made someone that sad before...

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