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Jan. 8th, 2009 | 11:47 am

So today is my birthday. For the first time in 4 years i'm not freaked about getting older. I think that may have to do with the fact that i'm now with someone who is 2 years older than me, compared to matthew who was 2.5 years younger and made fun of me for being old all the time. The other fact is this, I used to think what am i doing with my life, where am i going, and now that i have Joey in my life, everything makes sense. I'm excited for our future, for our life together. Every year that i have a birthday is another year with him. I've experienced so much, so many new emotions this year, that i feel like i've grown up SO much, and i feel ready to grow up. last year was the best year of my life, even though i experienced alot of heartache. It's changed me, made me better. i Don't mind being 28.... i'm happy.

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B O Y F R I E N D

Mar. 25th, 2008 | 08:40 pm

I broke up with Matthew tonight. He's pretty mad, he said he never wants to see me or talk to me again. I can't help that my feelings have changed and i love him only as a best friend, not romantically/sexually. It's not like i cheated on him or anything.... he told me that he cheated on me twice, but i'm pretty sure he was just saying that to hurt me.... it didnt' hurt me in anycase, which tells me just how not in love with him i am. he said, well at least i'm only 25, good luck finding someone at 27!? wtf, i was unaware that once you turned 27 you werent able to start a relationship anymore, man, that sucks. guess i'm gonna be singe for the rest of my life then.

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YAY TO NEW COMPUTERS

Jan. 11th, 2008 | 11:14 pm
mood: discontent discontent

Yay, my new computer came yesterday, after 3 months of no computer due to mine giving up on life and dying on me... i finally have music again. oh how i missed my music.... and the ability to write in my lj if i ever felt motivated to be un-lazy.
in other new i miss my kitty(tc), we had to put him to sleep, he was very old and in alot of pain from arthritis. i miss having a kitty of my own to cuddle and love, and recieve love from. specifically i miss having him to love. i mean i can still love him even though he's gone, but it's really not the same. i can't get my own cat (tc lived at my parents house) cause my roommate hates cats. i was going to volunteer at the SPCA a while ago as a person who goes in and plays and cuddles with the cats, but they didnt have any spaces free. i think i'll go check if theres any spaces now. i have a kitty void.... a tc void

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Ode For A Pet

Dec. 14th, 2007 | 12:17 pm
mood: crushed crushed

If it should be that i grow frail and weak,
and pain should keep me from my sleep,
then you must do what must be done
for this last battle can't be won.

You will be sad - i understand
don't let your grief then stay your hadn
for this day more than all the rest
your love and friendship stand the test

We've had so many happy years
what is to come - can have no ears
you'd not want me to suffer so
when the time comes, please let me go

Take me where my needs they'll tend
only say with me until the end
and hold me firm and speak to me
until my eyes no longer see

I know in time that you will see
it is kindness to me
although my tail it's last has waved
from pain and suffering i've been saved

Don't grieve it should be you
who decides this thing to do
we've been so close, we two, these years
don't let your heart hold any tears

Smile for we cuddled together
for a little while.

-author unknown



RIP T.C.

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Y A Y

Oct. 5th, 2007 | 09:30 am

i'm going to send a gift (my choice, but tailored to the recipient) to the first five people who comment here and post this message in their own blogs.

whatever the gift is, i promise i will get it to you by the end of this calendar year. it'll be a physical object, so i'll need your snail mail address if i don't have it.

the only thing you need to do to receive your gift is participate. be one of the first five to reply to this, and post a similar offer on your blog.

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I S T O L E T H I S F R O M J E N A YYYYY

Sep. 28th, 2007 | 11:28 pm

this ones for you jay-lo


ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
right knee, i was climbing over a fence in grade 3 and there was a nail sticking out and it ripped my knee open.

WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
calender, kitty pictures, pooh thing my grandma made, little banner thing form the night the oilers raised messier's jersey to the rafters and retired his number.

DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
i grind my teeth, but i just got a mouth guard for that.

WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
lots



DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
1.13 am

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
to be at peace with aspects of my life

WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST?
my kitty

WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
my jewelery collection, most of which sent to me throught the years from my grandparents for various occasions.

HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'2

DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
ni dont think so, i'm small so i usually like small places, but i dont like really low ceilings.

DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
yes

THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
erica's boyfriend when he accidently punched me in the nose.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PERFUME FOR A GIRL?
fresh laundry

WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
not picky on the hair, brown/green eyes

WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING/ BEING PROPOSED TO?
i cant imagine that

COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
bleh neither

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
boston pizza's tuscan chicken

IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
pizza

HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
ewww

2WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
a clean diaper?

DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
i like my friends

ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No

FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
usually lamb, but the latest season is butt-ugly

DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
at my parents house

WHAT KIND IS IT?
the cutest, softest cat

WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS GOING TO LEAVE YOU?
i'm nmot sure

WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
actions, words

SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13

BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
depends

WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
matt

WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
stupid people

HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yes

YOUR WEAKNESSES?
spending money

MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
i don't think so, you'd think i'd remember if i had.

FIRST JOB?
sandwhich artist at subway

EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
in grade 4


DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yes

HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
pick a fight with matt. obsess

WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
sherwood park

WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
libby natalie

HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE
i dont feel like counting

WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A KID?
ewww

DO YOU USE SARCASM?
um yes

MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mashed potatoes

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
connection

WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
nic, n-jay

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER?
no doubt

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
lots

WHAT WAS YOUR ACT/SAT SCORE?
n/a

DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes

WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?
disneyland, birmingham UK

WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE GONE IN A CAR?
i dunno

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED?
matt

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
the food network

LAST THING YOU DRANK?
milk

LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
my brother

THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
how they carry themselves

LAST TEXT YOU GOT?
something from matt, i dont remember

FAVORITE THING TO HAVE?
kitty snuggles, specifically with my cat

FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
january

FAVORITE ZODICAC SIGN?
capricorn

WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
different colors

EYE COLOR?
blue green

FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
hockey or soccer

FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTURANT?
whatever i feel like at any particular time

DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
yes!

LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
dead like me

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Sep. 11th, 2007 | 11:51 pm
mood: tired tired

Tell Me About You

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. Do you read my lj:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:
14. Do farts make you laugh:

Recommend

1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song and an album:

Me

1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:

Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you.

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M R I

May. 24th, 2007 | 11:34 pm
mood: frustrated frustrated

ooookay, so the results of my mri came back... i have a rip in my cartledge... not big enough to really operate, but big enough that my dr. told me i should quit soccer... quit running.. quit any sport that has to do with running or pivoting... so ya know.. basically all the good ones. i asked what i can do, he had one option..... swimming.. blarrrggg. i love cometetive team sports, i love the adrenaline rush of playing awesome and winning... i love soccer pure and simple. and i'm sick of people tellimg me "oh well theres other ways to get exercise and to stay in shape" that's not the point!!! it's not about that, it's about pure love and enjoyment for the game. i asked him if surgury would be an option, he said not really because they would go in and take out a big chunk of cartledge and then i'd get early arthritis. he's like you dont really want to get arthritis in your 30's do you.
in anycase, i'm getting a 2nd opinion, i have an appt in 1 1/2 weeks. this is the 2nd time my family dr has been content to tell me to simply stop. the first time i did, cause i'd had so many tests came up and he couldn't figure out what was wrong. so i quit for 4 years, till matt recommended i go see dr. randy gregg (former edmonton oilers woooo) he specializes in sports injuries... and he solved my first knee problem...
i was pretty bummed out... so i undulged in retail therapy... green miehena's, army capri, army vest, lamb chop tee.... one lamb shopping spree later, i have one cute outfit... and feel somewhat better.. but i still love soccer, and don't want to quit.

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O H B O Y

Apr. 30th, 2007 | 09:16 am
mood: numb numb

what do you do when you realize that after 4 years in a relationhip, you love and care for you boyfriend, but no longer are IN love with him, or feel a desire for him... he is your best friend and knows you so well, and still loves you and puts up with your annoying ways. so you try to break it to him... and he gets really upset (to be expected) and tells you that he's changed his life for you, and you are his world and everything he does is for you, and he has/is nothing without you, and he thought you were it, you were his soulmate... and how he can't believe that you dont feel the same as him.... and so you get really upset and start to question your own feelings... and take back the break up in a sense.... thinking maybe you were wrong and so focused on his bad qualities before.... but wake up the next morning knowing no... you were right, and now your stuck, really just stuck... cause otherwise you destroy someone who you care deeply about, when they're already feeling depressed about other issues in their life.....


i thought alot about how he would react... and knew it would be like this... but it was SO much worse than i imagined... i didn't realize he was depressed... he never let on or told me.. now i'm stuck.... i can not break up with him.... it would devastated him... even myself the next day felt like crap... without him.. yet i just don't think he's the one...

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R A N D O M

Apr. 13th, 2007 | 08:17 am
mood: groggy groggy

H&M opened in west edmonton mall yesterday, i don't work today, so i'm going to brave the crowds (there was a line up that started at something like 8am to get in yesterday) and go check it out... i liked h&m when i was in England.... but first... the dentist for a clean! yay shiny teeth... i saw grindhouse on tuesday. i shouldn't have gone to such a late show, cause by the time deathproof came on i was super tired.. personally i liked deathproof better than planet terror, but i was the only one out of everyone i went with.. however i love rose mcgowan in planet terror, she's a hottie, and she dating the director now (rodreguiez-bad spelling blah)

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T. C.

Apr. 9th, 2007 | 11:19 pm
mood: anxious anxious

i've been sad today.... yesterday my mom told me that my cat fell over while walking last week, that is SO sad. he has REALLY bad arthritis in his front right paw, and it's just getting worse. he used to walk a normal speed but limp, now he's walking really slow and limping. i used to massage it at night before bed, but now i'm not around anymore... i feel so bad... he seems so sad to me now when i see him... and mad at me for leaving him. we used to be buddies, he'd wait for me to come home at night, then we'd go to bed and i'd give him cuddles. he'd always be there in the morning when i got up and he'd wait for me to get out of the shower, then we'd go eat breakfast together.. i kept him company.. now i'm gone and i feel bad. i'm the only one he's ever let pick him up and cuddle with him...
it's hard because i'm sure we're going to put him down in the next year or so beacuse we dont' want him to be living in unbearable pain... but he's still so sound of mind... it's just his body that's aging at the moment... that just makes it all the more harder to accept when he's still fully himself mentally.
then last night i was lying in bed and was deeply thinking about how it's going to be... how i'll have to go with him to the vet when we put him down, to comfort him because i always comfort him when he goes to the vet... and i'll have to hold him while they inject him... and he'll fall asleep forever in my arms... and i'll know he's never going to wake up again... and i'll be destroyed..... utterly destroyed... my kitty had been my best friend for the past 17 years of my life.. i've never had to face death so personally before... i'm not sure how to get past that... i could not stop crying last night... i was still really sad this morning...
and i mean, i should't even be thinking like this now.... this probably won't happen for maybe a year.... but i've never let my self delve deep into the thought before... and i can't stop thinking about it... it's like there's nothing else as important to bother thinking about.. gees... i love my kitty with all my heart... i just need to get a freaking grip.

and my nintendo finally broke (the origianl NES)... it's been fritzing out lately, now it's gone.... at least i still have my super nintendo and gamecube.. i can get another one for $60.00, that'll have to wait awhile though...

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D I O R

Apr. 3rd, 2007 | 08:49 pm

Wow! the Dior rep was in today, we got rid of all our bunkass old dior sunglasses, and ordered 19 new models, and picked up Marc by marc jacobs. This summer's dior sunglass collection is way better than last years... plus i found 2 that i totally love...i had kind of resigned myself to get a pair of juicy sunglasses this summer... i mean i liked them, but didn't love them, and we've seen the coach, fendi, gucci, dolce & gabbana etc... reps already and there wasn't anything i was gaga over for myself... but now i'm stuck between 2... with my "optical allowance" from the company i've already ordered a new pair of glasses, i ordered a year of contacts today, so have just enough left over to get one dior sunglass... after that well... hopefully matthews new job takes off and he can buy me the other pair...

jen-naaaay... this is my new frame, but the front is brown(semi-matte) and the temples are green, like a lime pastel color, hard to describe..

http://www.wagnerkuehner.de/webshop/index.php?session=14107055625651554754&neuenummer=50074-00830&

my sunglasses

diorito 2 - but with a brown lens instead of the purple lens - i love the gold hardware, and it actually doesn't fit too big.
http://www.sunglasses-shop.co.uk/uk-sunglasses/Dior-Sunglasses/Dior-Diorito-2-Sunglasses/1378.htm

airspeed- this isn't the exact model, mine is smaller - i think it was just released, and it's tint is a flash mirror like your attling's adn the temple is a frosty baby pink color
http://www.giarre.com/glasses/christiandior-model-diorairspeed1-avd_yp-unique.php

desicions decisions...

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f a c e b o o k

Apr. 1st, 2007 | 11:42 pm
mood: amused amused

so i had a request from a high school friend who i havne't seen in 3 or 4 years to join facebook. So i joined facebook.... it weirds me out... suddenly another friend i haven't spoken to in a year adds me, and another high school friend little brother adds me. i look at their friends and it's just a ton of siblings of people from high school and kids in grades below me...i don't know whey but facebook just weirds me out...it just does... but i've never been into the whole myspace thing either...plus i'm somewhat antisocial and don't have a desire to talk to most people from the past and "catch up", is that weird of me? who knows. i must upload my disney pix to my computer now so that i can do another celeb look alike thing, so amusing.

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look-a-likes!

Apr. 1st, 2007 | 11:25 pm

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star wars quiz!

Mar. 26th, 2007 | 07:20 pm
mood: sick sick

Your results:
You are Princess Leia
Princess Leia
72%
Padme
67%
Luke Skywalker
65%
Han Solo
61%
Lando Calrissian
57%
Jar Jar Binks
52%
Chewbacca
51%
An Ewok
51%
C-3PO
50%
Anakin Skywalker
50%
You are an excellent friend
and an unselfish person,
yet you like to spend a lot of
time on your hair and fashion.
You spend most of your time
with guys that are too cocky,
too hairy, or too related.


(This list displays the top 10 results out of a possible 21 characters)


Click here to take the "Which Star Wars character are you?" quiz...

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M I S C.

Feb. 27th, 2007 | 09:13 pm
mood: contemplative contemplative

Friday is "move Nicola's dresser" day.... the all i have left to move basically is a hell of alot of clothes, makeup, hair products... i'm not going to have enough room for all my clothes..
The new shopoholic book came from amazon today.. yay! i was suppossed to go watch my soccer game tonight, but it's cold and the oilers are playing, and i'm just going to nerd out with my book instead...
my ACL was getting better, i FINALLY went a whole week without it hurting, till last monday when i screwed it over again... last week was pretty bad at work, i'd reach the point where i literally could not walk anymore, it hurt so much, and i'm no wimp when it comes to sports injuries and pain. i'm actually making myself face the fact that i may not play soccer again!! :(
I think my kitty knows i'm moving away... he seems sad.. no-one to cuddle him before bed, no-one to cuddle him in the morning.. no-one to sleep with at night... i told my mom she's going to have to give him cuddles, but i'm the only one he'll actually let hold him for any amount of time... what a silly old man he is.. i truly worry that i'll move and he'll get sad and mope and get sicker and die. i mean he is 17, which is pretty old in cat life.. but i still want him to live forever...


geeeeees oilers, you're wearing the retro jersey's, it's messier's retierment game.. can't you just pull it together for once and beat phoenix??

PS Jennnnayyyy are you still coming to town?? i'll be the happiest girl if you do!

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F E N D E R B E N D E R

Feb. 13th, 2007 | 12:23 pm
mood: crappy crappy

Ugh.. i was driving to work, and there was a girl in front of me, and a van in front of her, and he slmmed on his breaks suddenly and turned left, quickly, she slammed on her breaks, i smalled on mine, hit ice, and ran into her. I didn't ram into her, just slowly slid, i didn't even think there would be any damage.... but this is me we're talkig about so of course there was damage. i asked her if she'd wanna settl this outside of insurance. but it's her moms car so she didn't know.i gave her my name and phone number, guess i couldn've been an asshole and given her a fake number, but i can't do that to someone.

i was pretty sure i'd bee introuble to go though insurance cause they have a "first ones free" clause for at-fault collsions which i used up june 2003, when i had my accidnet in BC and that jerk lied and blamed it on me. so i called to check and apparenlty the "first ones free" clause re-sets after 3 yrs of being accident free, so i get break! it's just really important that i don't get invloved in another accident in the next 3 years!!!! it still realllllllllly sucks... i'll have to go make a police report.... i'm still waiting for the girls mom to call so i can tell her i'm gonna go through insurance after all.

PHOOEY.... is this my 2nd in the whoel bad things come in 3's? (my acl injury that has me missing the rest of the indoor season being #1)
Donna says not to think like that she has some book, you can't think negative at all, and that's thinking negative.....

so on the upside, i pre-ordered the new harry potter and the new shopaholic books on amazon.ca
reg price on harry potter will be $45 when it comes out, but by pre-0rdereing it, i got it for $22!! shopaholic and baby was $18! yay for new books, even though i have to wait till the summer for harry, and feb 27 for shopaholic.

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l a d e e d a h

Feb. 8th, 2007 | 07:10 pm
mood: irritated irritated

yay, jenni's probably going to come visit in march, just in time for me to hopefully be moved into my new place.. (farther away from new city however jennnnaaay..... matt's is convenient for that)

we're probably going to end up going to Seattle in the end of august to see shelly-belly! Yay, i havne't been to seattle in 13 years, and even then i was 13 and it was for a soccer tournament... i'm going to go up the space needle and die... that's right.. die... from my fear of heights...

i have to start packing to move out... i have no idea how to pack up 26 years of life...??? i think if i had a date that i had to be out by it's be easier, but since i'm at home and can gradually move my stuff, (since i got the key to my new place in the begining of feb) i just procrastinate on things like that...
Plus i just got animal crossing for my DSlite on sunday, so that's got me pretty occupied... :P

matthew and i started season 2 of veronica mars yesterday.. woooo... so glad i bought the first and second seasons... and got matt hooked them ... mua haha ... jenni! it's only a matter of time till i get to you too!

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S N L

Dec. 10th, 2006 | 12:03 am

classic vanilla ice

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-65uWKz26pM

jim carey aka vanilla ice

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=apn8NlY7fXE


awesome..


yesterday was mine and matts 4 yr aniversary.. me love you long time..

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I T ' S O N

Dec. 6th, 2006 | 06:41 pm
mood: ecstatic ecstatic

wooo, matt was able to buy tickets for tonights game!!! oilers VS hurricanes .... stanely cup final rematch... i'm SO excited. tickets for oiler games are hard to get....

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